mes amis and i dressed up as bank robbers for halloween. or rather, we tried to. we ended up looking like a mere sextet wearing matching striped shirts. we were missing those scary ski-masks that bank robbers of the cinema wear in action, as well as actual bags of money. but hey, we tried.
it was my last halloween with these idiots – it feels like a routine now, checking off everything one by one off this list of last things i will do for a long, long time.
i keep thinking how this time next year, everything will be different: for the first time in 10 years, i will be in a different country when school starts, surrounded by people i have never met, living by myself (and having to feed myself, eek!), and going through an entirely new routine. no more waking up at 6:15 am every weekday to shower and eat and get on the bus at 7:30 to head to school. no more eating questionable cafeteria meals with my friends at 13:05 every monday-friday. no more returning home to my parents and relating to them everything that happened that day in school, significant or not. this is scary. so scary. i'm excited at the change that will happen, but also scared.
i hope this fear goes away soon.
over and out,